For Mama

My child ..
I shall not bear the agony of parting with you in death
So I depart at your birth
Its 9 days before you are here
So much to say
But time permits only - good byes!

But I ask of you ....
The last thing you must do for mama

In time I will regret
 its destiny for me to stay
But if I do I'll fail you
I shall not make you dependent on my hand that yearns for you
So much to say
But time permits only - good bye..

I ask of you
Smile ....and never look for mama
Trust no one my child
And let my absence remain the tallest cenotaph of the perfect love .....a ghost your mind will speak of and your eyes shall never see
A love you deserve
Depend on no one

This is the last thing I ask of you to do for mama

Please promise never to speak my name
The name of eternal love that must let you go
As a child I cannot give you what I too never had

Today I teach you what I've been taught
You stand alone
In this lonely world
And when you've grown
Change not your perception of the world my love


Walk the road of life expecting a quake with every step
Every emotion is a test ....
And saute your heart in numbness
So much to say
But time permits only - good byes

I love you ..but I can't tell you and I'll never show you
This is the lesson you must learn at birth
And such will be the case of many that will come

This is the last thing I beg of you to do for mama
Let not your first word be " mama"
For at birth I shall not hold you
But I shall only serve you the kiss of death on your forehead .....
And such will be the case of many that will come
I'll kiss you sweetly ...whilst my cheeks are wet and heart is on its last breath

I shall walk through the white doors
And crumble on the streets
I'll miss you
I'll miss you
I'll miss you

But smile for mama ....
So much to say my ave maria ...but time
Time only permits - good bye