Long Time Lover

Long time lover
My mind still runs on u

Lying here
Staring into the space beside Me
Space filled with ur spirit

I Feel u staring at me
Long time lover
Why did u leave?

Wasn't my love pure and flourishing enough
Wasn't my touch healing in her scared attempts to help ?

Long time lover
Why do u stare?
Eyes that tell me everything
But the words disappear before I read

After the passions in our hurricanes
After the smooth and tender love that flows in the stream ... Snaking its way through reality

long time lover
I breathe u ..... Still
Departure came but ......I still feel u
I still hear ur cries to be understood
Your plights to be loved
And paid attention to

The debris of our laughs and kisses
And feelings that ran too deep for the issuing flower of spirits
They still linger , my long time lover

After the death of our children
After the death of passion and belonging
After the cremation of supernatural thoughts of us being together
I still feel u long time lover......

I still feel u ....in the valley of death
I still feel ......after pores were ashed with hurt
There's still apart of "us" that flows in me
Maybe they created vessels ....on my blood of memory they feed

Long time lover
Someday I hope to see u
Someday I hope that you'd tell me the truth
Tell me all that eyes summoned me to read

Long time lover ....
Your spirit still lingers ...
Am I to only be with u in spirit
From a distance
To feel ur embrace from the moonlight as it comes and goes
To find ur love notes in the wind as I walk alone


Long time lover
Guess I'll keep staring
Watch u fade
Or watch your spirit sparkle beside me
Even though ur presence isn't here
My love-.the remains ....belong to ur spirit
That still lingers .....and stares

# to my long time lover , watching u drift slowly in the wind , but I still feel u ...u have become "my wind "