The Break-Up

OCTOBER 28TH 2012

U RAPED ME

U KILLED ME

HOW COULD U
HOW COULD U CHEW ME LIKE THE GUM IN UR MOUTH USED MY JUICES HAD UR FILL AND SPIT ME OUT

HOW  DARE U , KIDNAP the invaluable  PRISTINE ALLURE OF MY FEELINGS , TRAFFIC THEM IN  slave like CONTAINERS of lust AND AUCTION THEM OFF TO Ur MOST TEMPORARY DESIRES

HOW COULD U
I TASTED THE DESPAIR OF UR DAYS , AND RENEWED UR VEINS WITH THE COMFORT OF MY SINCERITY AND DEVOTION TO U

WITH GRACE I CAREFULLY MASSAGED THE  108 PORES ON EACH SQUARE INCh OF UR NECK  I TOOK THE TIME TO COUNT AS I WATCHED U SLEEP

HOW COULD U
RIP THE BUTTERFLIES FROM MY THROAT AND BURN THEM ONE BY ONE
I LOVED U

I ADORED U LIKE THE EARTH SANG HYMNS TO GOD AS HIS LOVE TWINKLED OFF EVERY TANGENT OF THE SUN’S RAYS

U WERE MY MORNING

U WERE MY FAVOURITE MEMORY
It kills me to put u in the past tense

EVERY MEMORY OF U I STRETCHED , PLAYED IN SLOW MOTION , AND IF ANY RECORD GOT SCRATCHED I USED THE PURIFYING LIQUID OF OUR CONNECTION AND I CLEANSED IT
BUT THIS I REALIZED TOO LATE DIDN'T MATTER TO U

U WERE  THE SUNLIGHT , OXYGEN AND AIR TO MY PHOTOSYNTHESIS

MY LUNGS WITHERED WITH EVER SECOND THAT U Weren't THERE.


U TOLD ME
THE WORD "US " HAS NO FUTURE
I WISH I WERE STRONG ENOUGH TO KILL U

IN  FIVE SECONDS –
I WAS RAPED ,ROBBED , MURDERED

U STRETCHED THE DAGGER OF THOSE SHARP WORDS AND RIPPED THE  WALLS OF THE INNER TISSUES OF MY HAVEN

A SANCTUARY OF LOVE

U ABORTED THE CHILD OF my  FEELINGS
IN ME – my insides now septic


U PLACED THIS  EXPLOSIVE IN MY WOMB

THE PLACE ONLY WHERE I NURTURED EVERYTHING ABOUT U
– LIKE THE NERVOUSNESS OF OUR FIRST KISS
-THE CONNECTION GOD BLESSED US WITH
- THE COMMONALITIES OF OUR UNDERSTANDING
- UR PICTURES – i worshiped , said prayers of faithfulness , sang songs in my amazement of u .
These exploded leaving pieces of bodies all over the battle field
Of ... whatever this was to u
I felt like a soldier taken to war , in the midst of 1001 korean warriors with spears at my throat , as u watched and turned ur back ...

 do u know how lonely u made me feel ?

 how ur desertion clogged my arteries
U threw acid of deception in my eyes how could u
 I placed u on the thrown of my pupils and u stabbed me!

U poured gramaxone  on the purity of feelings that grew like buttress roots
created a rainforest the amazon could not compare to this ,
 speices of trees grew so tall from this love , trees so tall so vast the world for the next century could not find enough scientists even if they made everyone on the earth scientist they would take 5millleniua to understand every root of my love for u
How could u
U spoke these words
Like a mature woman i figure this is the type of hoggwash i just have to accept and i swallowed
This poison
 puked blood
Blood of our memories
I lay on the on the dessert u ripped the zest of life from under my feet and i fell
Into the fetal position
Tightly knit into a cocoon of screams , screams of the hungry children in Africa pounding in my ear drum
Screams of a pregnant mom stuck in the climax of labour – her’s sons head is unable to pass tru and she screams – these screams trapped in my womb – dancing in my womb
Screams of 13 year old girls jus bought by some affluent manic about to snatch her innocence with his over grown syringe – and she screams in fear  with these screams she prays they pave a road so clear for her escape– these screams now trapped in me –
Screams of mothers who have to watch ther only son being sold and daughter brutally raped and killed and then her husband watches her – his last stare on this earth  before his head gets cut off – and she screams – her world shattered this world of her’s captured in a bubble stuck in my gullet

Im so shaken my breathe stutters ,
i speak and true words to express this pain u cannot hear ,
they run  out of my mouth and get frozen in mid air
This natural disaster goes down in history , beats the history of those that have hurt me
 In this hurricane of memories Im tumbling back and forth in slow motion as my spirit is ripped and shot back in to my mouth then ripped and shot in to my heart ,
ripped and shot back into the hollowness of a soul that God himself doesn't recognize anymore –

How is it possible for u to trap history in me
The horrors of world war one , two and three, the genocides , the evils of the Jagdeo regime , the cries of the bones of the unjust buried beneath africa’s  soil of blood – soil of horror ,

The slaves of the 18th century. Look upon my anguish, the witchcraft of my pain , immediately blinds them , confuses them
 they run happily into the arms of the modern day slave masters –
My horror gives rise to new found definitions for pain – even encyclopedias protest in the court of law , my pain requires a lifetime to comprehend .....so they too turn their backs on me
How could u
U were my everything
If this pain were a virus – she would be the mother of aids the mother of cancer the mother of hate
If this pain were a woman the devil would not be worthy to grace her presence
This pain so strong so indestructible it can replace the ozone layer
This pain is a freak of nature
My memories now like a puzzle all i remember  is the first time i saw u and ...... this end .....but ..somehow I'm still alive
And for showing me the resilience of my heart .....
I thank u