The Clock ..Tick-Tock

these days i hate the most
when every unheard sound...ECHOES!

time becomes the teacher
so i lay on the bed
legs crossed
palms.. interlocked..resting on the exact spot you once laid your head
right beneath my bossom

and i stare aimlessly at the clock
listening to her chatters...: tick tock

and i zoom into her timely zone
the numbers... just a conscious reminder of the nothingness

the more i am reminded of the "nothingness"
the more her  "tick tock "- voice screams
and she .. becomes annoying !

like the boring history teacher that just read the notes but never took you on the journey
so i ......stopped... calmed ........and paid attention

Clock strikes ...minute counts down
and my train of thought changing with every "tick-tock"
-why did i stay - tick tock
-why did i love him- tick tock
-i miss him -tick tock
- the sweet memories of love making -tick tock
-the paradise we created - tick tock

and i pause...the tick -tock resounds
beats on the drum of emptiness within
compelling me to reveal thoughts...buried
thoughts I'm terrified of
thoughts of confusion caught in the mitosis of the tick tock
and the splitting of these cells whip the frail embryo that cloaks a mind ... still healing

But the tick tock commands my attention again

clock strikes !
minute counts down ..
and my train of though changing with every tick tock
-i miss his touch -tick tock
-his warm embrace - tick tock
-his poetry- tick tock
-his perfectly structured face - tick tock
- the humming birds in his heart beat -tick tock
-the matrimonial melody  of our unioned tongues -tick tock
-the eccentric , electric, exotic , erotic dialects of pure love we SPOKE and ACTED -tick tock

and i pause
time giving me no chance to breathe
or giving the wounds ...time to bleed

SHE STRIKES AGAIN!

-our hands that were braver than our tongues, communicated or deepest fears -tick tock
-our embrace -ordained , spiritually entrancing,pores enchanted ,love "unending"-continuously binding,
minds that were simply in love , meant to be, .....minds entwined , they smiled together , used our lips to cool the blushing on their cheeks  .......tick tock , tick tock , tick ...........tock

here i am .....
in my pool of " our significance"
wounds gashed further
held open by the prongs of the "tick-tock"

my heart slows down.........with the tick tock
my heart descends further ...climbing down the stairs of my one purpose- filled life with u ....now but a mere vision of perfect power

i descend further away from ... strong breath
and futher away from the summit of u
tick tock ....my heart takes her last sigh
last appeal to the "moon"

she falls .. numb , dumb
over the hill of life - tick tock

stuck forever more in the dark valley of the -tick tock
let me be "dying proof"
that while time tried to heal me ..........

she just killed me .....

to the love that had an early death , and continues to mourn in the afterlife#goddess_athena